spring has officially begun... no really.

I'm fidgeting again. It may have something to do with spring - my thoughts turning to a desperate need to travel, to do new things, to embrace change, are certainly classic spring symptoms. So is my need to reexamine my entire life and find so much of it wanting.

I spend so much damn time wanting. I'm not ambitious, not really, I just want things. Lots of things. Impossible things. Contradictory things. I am a Gemini, after all.

Or the fidgets may have something to do with a job interview on Friday. I'll get progressively more and more nervous, even while denying that I am. I'll be one tightly strung wire of rigidly controlled terror by Friday morning. And all for a job I don't particularly want - except that it is a way out of the job I currently have, which I definitely don't want and desperately need to escape.

Argh. And, may I add, grr.