there should be more than this.

both brown_eyes and myself have given in our notices. i think the management may have a collective breakdown, as this leaves the second floor without any seniors or full-time staff. why does this fill me with a sadistic gloating amusement? is that wrong? *evil grin*

as the back-to-school season approaches, i find myself nostalgic for classrooms, textbooks, and fresh pages of lined paper spread out before me. then i remember the exams, the boring lectures, and the desperate scrambling to produce a mediocre paper two days before the due date, and i feel good about myself. so why am i still thinking about going back next year? different options are opening up.

going to rearrange my living area soon, just for the hell of it. i'm in need of a change, a shift in alignment. things are moving, like a maze on a timer, and my surroundings should reflect that. different me, different directions, different surroundings.

iopha recently spoke of a lifelong striving towards arete. i couldn't have put it better myself. time wasted, time used to its fullest extent. so much i should be doing, so much that i'm capable of doing. the only thing holding me back is my own human failings...