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the world is a scary place, and like it or not, we are adults now, responsible for our own decisions.
i think i'll take some time to send out much-needed thoughts.
i think i'll take some time to send out much-needed thoughts.
Jun. 26th, 2004
commitment?
Jun. 26th, 2004 10:25 pmsome days i hate being a Gemini. i'd like to be able to finish a project. maybe then i'd feel like i was getting things done, rather than just prepwork for projects i know i'll never complete.
my reading list for the summer is impressive. i've been neglecting my books recently, finding excuses, looking for alternatives. but a certain balance between knowledge and life is required for me to remain who i am. a scholar, a compiler, an endlessly curious Gemini.
i think i need to replace the stones in my pouch. and i need a few new amulets, too. of course, this rash on my neck means i wouldn't be able to wear them...
i feel strangely naked without my necklaces. some people never go out without their watch, or their rings, or whatever. me, it's a necklace. ever since i can remember, i've obeyed the compulsion to wear something around my neck. necklaces are also the only thing i never throw out. i have dozens, each valued for its own sake, and usually imbued with distinct auras. what i wear around my neck reflects my mood, my needs, my desires. it's subtle and usually overlooked, but that's just the way i am. nothing obvious, nothing glaring. the better to blend into the background.
i'm searching for a new project. no idea what it'll be yet ~ something publishable, i hope. unlike my stories, i want to get my nonfiction stuff published. i don't care if editors tear it apart, or reject it, or whatever. i'm fully cognizant of the intrinsic value of my nonfic work, simply because it's of value to me, and therefore worthwhile. even if it is never published, it's not a waste of time because i can pull it up at a moment's notice and consult it. does that make any sense at all?
so, new project. i'm letting it perculate a little more though, just under the surface. it'll come to me when it's ready.
my reading list for the summer is impressive. i've been neglecting my books recently, finding excuses, looking for alternatives. but a certain balance between knowledge and life is required for me to remain who i am. a scholar, a compiler, an endlessly curious Gemini.
i think i need to replace the stones in my pouch. and i need a few new amulets, too. of course, this rash on my neck means i wouldn't be able to wear them...
i feel strangely naked without my necklaces. some people never go out without their watch, or their rings, or whatever. me, it's a necklace. ever since i can remember, i've obeyed the compulsion to wear something around my neck. necklaces are also the only thing i never throw out. i have dozens, each valued for its own sake, and usually imbued with distinct auras. what i wear around my neck reflects my mood, my needs, my desires. it's subtle and usually overlooked, but that's just the way i am. nothing obvious, nothing glaring. the better to blend into the background.
i'm searching for a new project. no idea what it'll be yet ~ something publishable, i hope. unlike my stories, i want to get my nonfiction stuff published. i don't care if editors tear it apart, or reject it, or whatever. i'm fully cognizant of the intrinsic value of my nonfic work, simply because it's of value to me, and therefore worthwhile. even if it is never published, it's not a waste of time because i can pull it up at a moment's notice and consult it. does that make any sense at all?
so, new project. i'm letting it perculate a little more though, just under the surface. it'll come to me when it's ready.
