sea horses!

felt quite detached last night, walking the streets of Montreal on my own. it felt like i'd gone years without doing this, like it was something i'd missed and hadn't even realized it. and it struck me that i used to do things on my own, without relying on others to carry me. i used to be motivated enough to leave my house, take endless buses into town, and just observe the city as i walked, clearing my thoughts and my mind. reliance, dependance are all well and good, but i cannot lose sight of who i am for all that.

originally, i just went out for the sake of going out. but i ended up enjoying both the shows i caught at Fringe last night: a play and a show that i'll hesitantly call interpretive dance. i was left, in fact, with a feeling of familiarity from the play and a need to dance from the show. perhaps next year i'll actually figure out what's playing before they're on. for now, i'm broke, so nothing more for me.

interesting evening, in general. lots to think about. i'm left with a sense of myself as more than i thought, and as less as well.