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full circle
Feb. 7th, 2004 03:42 pmthanxs to phthisic and Red for a wonderful evening. twas good to dredge up the past. glad the insanity came with it. we must do this again sometime! (and yes, i am going to snap and go buy more cards, likely when i have the car. we all knew i would. i'm a sucker for pretty pictures and things that go foom!)
on another note, my sheer stubbornness astounds even me sometimes. here i am, driving myself crazy, doing research day and night, when i actually don't have to. this is all a misguided attempt by my subconscious to make up for dropping the Anthro class. i dropped anthro 'cause i couldn't do the paper, so i am subconsciously trying to compensate and prove to myself that i am still as smart as i think i am by producing another, absolutely brilliant, paper. unfortunately, the 2 week deadline and the fact that i work 5 days a week is not conducive to a good paper. in fact, the midterm would be SO much easier, and i don't get any extra marks for doing the paper. which leaves me in a conundrum (is that how you spell that?). do i write the paper and give up any pretense of living for the next two weeks, and possibly do worse on it than i would on the midterm, or do i enjoy myself, catch up on my reading for the other class, relax a bit, and study like mad for the midterm? hmm. seems to be no contest, really. stupid stubbornness. the fact that i hadn't even considered this option since i first decided to write the paper leaves me a little disturbed...
and on another note, i forgot this song existed. Sherlock's, revisited! (damn, i miss that place)
on another note, my sheer stubbornness astounds even me sometimes. here i am, driving myself crazy, doing research day and night, when i actually don't have to. this is all a misguided attempt by my subconscious to make up for dropping the Anthro class. i dropped anthro 'cause i couldn't do the paper, so i am subconsciously trying to compensate and prove to myself that i am still as smart as i think i am by producing another, absolutely brilliant, paper. unfortunately, the 2 week deadline and the fact that i work 5 days a week is not conducive to a good paper. in fact, the midterm would be SO much easier, and i don't get any extra marks for doing the paper. which leaves me in a conundrum (is that how you spell that?). do i write the paper and give up any pretense of living for the next two weeks, and possibly do worse on it than i would on the midterm, or do i enjoy myself, catch up on my reading for the other class, relax a bit, and study like mad for the midterm? hmm. seems to be no contest, really. stupid stubbornness. the fact that i hadn't even considered this option since i first decided to write the paper leaves me a little disturbed...
and on another note, i forgot this song existed. Sherlock's, revisited! (damn, i miss that place)
