still feeling a little sick,

and i can't seem to get the smell of apple Hisha (is that how you spell it?) out of the back of my head. it seems to have attached itself there. very disturbing. it's making me dizzy. but Li's vernissage was nice, lots of pretty pieces. i wish i was still creative. i miss it, but i don't have the motivation to do anything like that anymore. and as the years go by, i'm losing it more and more...

i was so tired earlier, and now i'm awake. i'd do housework, but everything i have left to do is loud and can't be done after 11pm. so instead i'm cooking. gonna settle down and watch a movie later on, with my headphones on so i don't bug the neighbors. feeling very mellow and relaxed, and just a little ill. meh.