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so somehow, i'm slipping back into antisocial mode. didn't i just crawl outta that? *#^$*)(*! silly subconscious dictating distance. maybe it's having constant company (in all senses of the word). maybe it's just an inability to deal with so many people being thrown at me all at once. or maybe it's just me. *shrug* i never pretended to make sense...
i'm gonna attribute it to the sheer pressure of the amount of things i must accomplish over the summer. so many things to do, so many plans, it feels like i have no free time anymore. so i tend to take advantage of what little time i do get to myself to relax and not worry about anything. except, of course, i am completely incapable of relaxing or not worrying, so i end up being productive anyhow. i have inactivity, yet crave it. *thwacks self on head* silly cymry.
i'm enjoying having multiple projects going at once, and i'm enjoying having something artistic to do for the first time in several years. i hope i'll be able to keep it up once this event at work is over, though lack of time will, as usual, intrude on that. hadn't realized how much i missed it. i also miss spending time with my close friends ~ haven't seen you guys enuf recently (well, not just the few of us, anyway. large groups don't really count).
i've been feeling fairly useless recently. part of that is the antisocialness kicking around my brain, but most of it is simple non-productivity. i am a person who always needs to be doing something, preferably something with a noticeable effect in the end. hence, the art, or the writing. been reading a lot, but while it's satisfying to escape, it's not satisfying to realize you've nothing to show for all those hours.
i'm every boss' dream come true: an employee who hates to be bored and needs to find solutions to things and think up ways to better a situation. or, in my manager's case, i'm a royal pain in the ass. =P
okay, i'm babbling. i'm trying to express something (i think) but i can't seem to find the words. i think i'll think about it a bit more. maybe write something. wait, no. maybe draw? *frowns* bah. i'll find something. i always do.
i'm gonna attribute it to the sheer pressure of the amount of things i must accomplish over the summer. so many things to do, so many plans, it feels like i have no free time anymore. so i tend to take advantage of what little time i do get to myself to relax and not worry about anything. except, of course, i am completely incapable of relaxing or not worrying, so i end up being productive anyhow. i have inactivity, yet crave it. *thwacks self on head* silly cymry.
i'm enjoying having multiple projects going at once, and i'm enjoying having something artistic to do for the first time in several years. i hope i'll be able to keep it up once this event at work is over, though lack of time will, as usual, intrude on that. hadn't realized how much i missed it. i also miss spending time with my close friends ~ haven't seen you guys enuf recently (well, not just the few of us, anyway. large groups don't really count).
i've been feeling fairly useless recently. part of that is the antisocialness kicking around my brain, but most of it is simple non-productivity. i am a person who always needs to be doing something, preferably something with a noticeable effect in the end. hence, the art, or the writing. been reading a lot, but while it's satisfying to escape, it's not satisfying to realize you've nothing to show for all those hours.
i'm every boss' dream come true: an employee who hates to be bored and needs to find solutions to things and think up ways to better a situation. or, in my manager's case, i'm a royal pain in the ass. =P
okay, i'm babbling. i'm trying to express something (i think) but i can't seem to find the words. i think i'll think about it a bit more. maybe write something. wait, no. maybe draw? *frowns* bah. i'll find something. i always do.
