if there was ever a reason to stop procrastinating...

for a few weeks, people have been talking about Delerium coming in concert. from the tones of their voices, i figured this was a while away. apparently, it was friday. *sigh* and, of course, because this is the way my life works, Kristy Thirsk was accompanying on vocals. *thwacks head on desk* possibly my only chance to see her, gone (despite constant rumors otherwise, she still hasn't managed to come out with that solo album). now, i've been following her career for some time, and that was really the only appeal the Delerium concert had for me: there was a slim chance they could get her to accompany them, since they're on the same record label and seem fairly close, considering the number of vocal tracks she's done for Delerium over the last few years. *sigh* there goes that idea.

when the hell did we all get so old?

all i hear are worries: can i get a job in my field? i'm in debt. i'm not going to make it. if i have to stay in this job one more minute, i'll go mad. ~ where did the carefree days go? admittedly, childhood wasn't exactly carefree anyway, but when did we start obsessing endlessly over adult things? i always told myself i would rather die than grow old mentally. and yet, here i am, worrying about every cent and wondering what in the worlds to do with myself now that i'm graduating from university. i can honestly say i never expected to get this far; now that i have, what's next? not a 9-5 job, certainly. i'm not cut out for a full-time, everyday job. give me flexibility, give me travel, give me creativity. unfortunately, what i'm good at is the 9-5, day to day niceties of the corporate world. *strangles that part of self* bad lackey.

so what does this leave me with? an attempt to break into a job field that doesn't exist? a teaching position? a jump off the second floor balcony? i've got a plan ~ now what?